June 2013
Lovely people deserve to hear lovely things
Well thank you, you seem quite lovely yourself even though you’re anon. You made my day with that. I needed that.
(:
Youre so flawlessy beautiful. i could stare into those eyes for a lifetime
Thank you! That was such a lovely thing to say(:
That night...
I want that night back. I want that passion and that overwhelming feeling of you actually wanting me, needing me almost. I want to feel like you love me. I want to be making love again, not just fucking or having sex. I want that love making from that night we had together. I want to feel the curves of your body and the goose bumps that covered your soft skin. I want the sweet taste of your lips on mine. I’d do anything just to have those few hours play on repeat forever.
But it won’t. I want it, you don’t. And I’m not even sure you did in the first place.
I have a drinking problem.
And I know it. I admit it. I’ve been battling my alcohol addiction for 6 years now and I’m only 19. I’ve gone to rehab for it multiple times, but right now I just don’t care anymore. I’ve got two fifths and some shitty ass wine type of thing and I’m just gonna down it all. Fuck the world. Fuck everyone in it, including me. And just fuck life. I want to die. But I’m so used to the alcohol at this point that heavily drinking doesn’t do much anymore. Probably won’t kill me, But hey, might as well try anyways.
fucking great.
my best friend, best fucking friend, is moving to Colorado.
I’m going through the absolute worst time of my fucking life and she has always been the only person who has never left my side and now she’s leaving. I don’t know what I’m going to do without her. She’s saved my life countless times and she’s been the only one to keep me hanging on by a thread for years. I’ve already lost everything else, and now I’m losing her too? I can’t do this. I won’t last a month without her here.
“We were discussing homosexuality because of an allusion to it in the book we were reading, and several boys made comments such as, “That’s disgusting.” We got into the debate and eventually a boy admitted that he was terrified/disgusted when he was once sharing a taxi and the other male passenger made a pass at him. The lightbulb went off. “Oh,” I said. “I get it. See, you are afraid, because for the first time in your life you have found yourself a victim of unwanted sexual advances by someone who has the physical ability to use force against you.” The boy nodded and shuddered visibly.“But,” I continued. “As a woman, you learn to live with that from the time you are fourteen, and it never stops. We live with that fear every day of our lives. Every man walking through the parking garage the same time you are is either just a harmless stranger or a potential rapist. Every time.” The girls in the room nodded, agreeing. The boys seemed genuinely shocked. “So think about that the next time you hit on a girl. Maybe, like you in the taxi, she doesn’t actually want you to.”
—
Andrew Sullivan, Homophobia: The fear that another man will treat you like you treat women.
(via perfect)
this right here.
My biggest talents:
- Accidentally offending people
- Accidentally fucking things up
- Deliberately offending people
- Deliberately fucking things up
- Procrastinating
6. sleeping
7.eating
8.crying over fictional characters9. Sitting on my ass all day
10. Drinking heavily
11. Smoking a LOT of cigarettes.
You're so pretty!
Thank you very much!(:
Why anon though?! I’d like to know who I’m thanking(:
Wow. I shouldve known that you wouldnt keep your word. Good to know.
And what word is it that I need to be keeping to anon? Because I ain’t said shit to anyone about anything. If you feel different, come off anon and well talk but if not, you can keep your judgements and comments to yourself.
So I collapsed at my job today.
Outside in the grass and passed out for ten minutes and then almost threw up when I man came up and shook me to see if I was alright.
Now I’m at my other job and I feel like it’s gonna happen again.
Today sucks.
I'm sodunk!
Ima go lay on the traintrsnsk and hope a train comes! Wooohoooooooo
So,bim way super drnko.
And I gotta work 10am-9:30pm, and I have the hiccuped At 4am should getting Homs. Tomorrows gunba suckkkkj!
Really not excited
To get up at 7am to get ready for almost a 10 hour meeting for Spencer’s managers. Definitely isn’t gonna be a fun day hanging out with my regional, district, and LP managers. Fml.
So. Fucking. Nervous.
